Raw pain

I'm not gonna deny. It hurts. I feel empty, speechless, but I don't feel like crying. There's a whole in my chest, and for once I'm okay with it. I've past the point where I still really care. I finally unfriended you, so I can be free. It was the last step, but it needed to happen. I no longer believe that we will have a future together. I believe I'm better than this. I shouldn't be wasting my time. They all knew this, knew what I didn't want to admit to myself. But now that it's over, I hope to sore to greater heights. I am beyond hurt right now for the moment, but I'll be okay. Despite the emptiness, I am appreciating the quiet beauties of life. The sun, the breeze, my family and friends. I am learning to love myself again, slowly but surely. I am slowly refinding myself again. I don't know how long this process will take, but I will teach it eventually.

"Thomas Edison's last words were, 'Its very beautiful over there.' I don't know know where there is, but I believe it's somewhere and I hope it's beautiful"

-John green, Looking for Alaska