Makes me happy

It's really interesting how my parents back then were the kinds of people who didn't have any plans on a Saturday night. All they did was work, eat tai chi and sleep. And take us to school and shop with us. I use to think the sole purpose of their life was just for my brother and I. Day by day, it was always the same routine.

Now that Daniel and I have grown up, my parents are even busier than I am! They have so many socials and events, it's kinda crazy! It's weird to call my mom and have her tell me that she just got back from san diego or she and dad just got back from a house party...LOL what? I know I'm not around as much, and that I'm shaping my own life...but  it's weird to see her and dad move on too! It's like we're constantly changing as a family. I'm slowly growing as a person and she as well, but in different aspects. My parents are learning to enjoy life (they never went out much even before they made a family) with their friends, temple and my brother and I are doing big things too. It's amazing to think about all of that in retrospect. It makes me really happy that they are having fun, doing new things, challenging themselves, living every day to the fullest. I'm just happy and grateful they still love me so much even though I'm like the worst daughter in the world. I'm just in a very grateful and happy mood lately and it's quite nice. Blessed with the best.

Progress

My progress this past week has been surprisingly...good! It's been since four days since I've stumbled across your tumblr. I just didn't have any urges too, I guess. I mean, wednesday night I was about to type in the url, and then I stopped myself. Because I felt weird in my stomach and I realize I didn't need to know last night what you've been up to. And just right now, this morning, I literally had the url in the url bar. All I had to do was click enter and it would redirect me there. But for some reason, I exited the window. Maybe it's finally working. I really don't need to know what you are up to and your whereabouts. Maybe being hurt sunday night was the final straw? it sure didn't feel like it, but since then I realize I just didn't care. It hurts too much to know and I'm better not knowing. :)

First family dorm dinner on tuesday was a HUGE success!! I literally wanted to cry when I saw everyone's happy faces...ZOMG. And I ran into someone that I once knew and we started talking on facebook! LOL, it's nothing really. but the fact that someone actually wanted to talk, and that I could carry on a conversation gives me hope that I can meet new people who are interested in talking to me. Also, I got a job offer yesterday afternoon! No longer unemployed, bitch! :D I guess I made a lasting impression on my interviewer. They were interviewing a bunch of people and only hiring one, and they asked legitimate interview questions too, that I wasn't quite prepared for. But like Limbroco said, just be yourself. I wouldn't tell this to a lot of people, but for you, be yourself. He probably has no idea how his words impacted my attitude towards interviews.. LOL but I was actually myself this time. Captivating, thrilled, genuine, it was like having a real conversation with my interviewer and I was totally laxed. Maybe I can do this. Plus, it totally pays more than my old job that I worked my ass off for! Also, we presented our project ideas in lab yesterday as well and I think I did a pretty damn good job. I looked at audience, was my genuine self, it's getting there. My kaplan pcat book finally arrived too! Just got to get into my last ochem lab next quarter and life might as well be on its way up. Plus its Halloween today. Finally piecing my life back together and I know i'm meant for bigger and better things. What happens from here on out is mine and mine alone. It isn't shared with another person; I'm gonna wait for the one that challenges me to try harder and someone who fully appreciates me.

Pick me up

Dear Denise,

Did I ever tell you how gorgeous you are? Your smile radiates and shines from light years away. Your presence lights up the entire room. Don't ever feel like you aren't good enough because dear, you are the most precious thing in the world. You have an enormous imagination, always dreaming of fantasies and adventures. You dream of big things and I know you will accomplish great things with all of your willpower. You have the biggest heart I have ever seen, and you do things for others without asking for something in return. You have a peaceful mind that knows no argument--always wishing to resolve conflict instead of starting them. Dear, this mode of hurt and angriness is only temporary. Your body doesn't know how to handle te hormone imbalance so it makes you feel this way, but it's okay. Stay bright and happy; don't let the clusterfuck of emotions cloud your judgement. Stay calm and it, too, shall pass. The day is still young and beautiful, just like you.

Love,

Yourself.

Pocket full of sunshine

Ain't nothing like summer. Beautiful, magnificent, splendid, carefree, warm. My brother is in town with his kid and wife and Daniel and I have been chauffeuring them around town. The kid is quite lovely and cute. Life is pretty good, I can't complain. I am a happy bee and nothing is bringing me down. My relationships with people are improving, especially with my boyfriend. I've learned to not be jealous because I have his heart upon my sleeve. Just gotta be confident. 

 

Turnaround

I can honestly say life has been on the rise this week. I hit rock bottom with my emotions last week and now that summer weather is upon us, my mood has soared. No more crying to sleep, no more angry tweets, I'm on that high and I don't plan to come down for a while.

This week is going to be extremely busy; I actually pulled out my agenda and started filling out my days simply because it was too hard to keep track. Early nights and early mornings, macarons, movies and chill breeze. I definitely caught that summer-itis, only 4 more weeks to go.

I finally saw my boothang this weekend and it was a nice reunion. We just ate. And sat next to each other. And took silly Instagram pictures. Before the craziness of our lives catches up on us. Good luck with finals this week, babe.

Summer days mean summer outfits. Finally breaking out the rainbows and shades and high waisted shorts, crop tops and bandeaus. Spending time getting ready for school and going out,, ditching classes to sleep/study. Life is good.

I got a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love and I know it's all my own.