Pocket full of sunshine

Ain't nothing like summer. Beautiful, magnificent, splendid, carefree, warm. My brother is in town with his kid and wife and Daniel and I have been chauffeuring them around town. The kid is quite lovely and cute. Life is pretty good, I can't complain. I am a happy bee and nothing is bringing me down. My relationships with people are improving, especially with my boyfriend. I've learned to not be jealous because I have his heart upon my sleeve. Just gotta be confident. 

 

Turnaround

I can honestly say life has been on the rise this week. I hit rock bottom with my emotions last week and now that summer weather is upon us, my mood has soared. No more crying to sleep, no more angry tweets, I'm on that high and I don't plan to come down for a while.

This week is going to be extremely busy; I actually pulled out my agenda and started filling out my days simply because it was too hard to keep track. Early nights and early mornings, macarons, movies and chill breeze. I definitely caught that summer-itis, only 4 more weeks to go.

I finally saw my boothang this weekend and it was a nice reunion. We just ate. And sat next to each other. And took silly Instagram pictures. Before the craziness of our lives catches up on us. Good luck with finals this week, babe.

Summer days mean summer outfits. Finally breaking out the rainbows and shades and high waisted shorts, crop tops and bandeaus. Spending time getting ready for school and going out,, ditching classes to sleep/study. Life is good.

I got a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love and I know it's all my own.

Taste of Summer

Two weeks ago, my boyfriend and I went to LACMA to view the beautiful art and we couldn't help it but take advantage of the gorgeous late August weather to have a photoshoot! I personally enjoyed the photoshoot a lot better than the artwork of the place itself. Maybe we went at a bad time, but there wasn't any unique exhibits.

I recently shopped online at Urban Outfitters and bought this cute dress! Free shipping, ftw. It looked super simple online, but once I tried it on at home, I knew it was a keeper. Only wished I didn't slouch in this picture. :(

All smiles! Necklace is from Forever21, necklace is from somewhere--got it a while back, on my lips was Revlon's lip butter in cherry tart, sunglasses are from St. John (birthday gift from my aunt this year)

Peek-a-boo! I see the camera!

I wish my boyfriend had a normal picture. Why must he look so creepy in every picture :( I want to show him off to the world, but this is so unattractive, LOLOL.

Afternoon sun was in my eyes, so hard to see.

Finally we got one decent picture. The lighting was just right, you can see how blue the skies were! I wish we had some cute couple ones near the poles, but beggars can't be choosers. Finding a photographer who knows how to work a dslr is pretty tough. Glad mr. photographer was able to capture this beautiful day ^_^

Two years to forever

Finally another update! I've been caught up in the whirlwind of summer school, work, apartment life, partying (jk about the last one!) that I haven't had much time to blog or much less feel inspired to blog. But trust me, I've been thinking about a lot of stuff! :)

Last weekend, my boyfriend and I decided to celebrate our two year anniversary early! So I told him to visit me in LA where I spoiled him with goodies and food (and now I am a broke ass) but hey, if you to be spoiled, you got to do some spoiling first yourself heheheh :)

This was my first time making an edible arrangement EVER! After weeks of watching my good friend Diane make these, I finally ventured to do some of my own arrangement. The only bad thing was the chocolate was overheated so I had to add water, which diluted it so it didn't harden properly :( If you look closely at the strawberries, you can see parts of the chocolate not drying properly. But nevertheless, the overall result looked pretty darn good, for a first timer! I used chocolate candy melts (you can get them from your local groceries), blueberries, peanut topping, kale for decoration and a huge orange as base. It's pretty simple to make, and would have taken me at most one hour max, but since the chocolate was giving me a hard time, it took me three hours :(

My boyfriend got me some roses! I still have them dried up in my orange juice case since I don't have a vase at the apartment. What a nice surprise--roses are always so classy and romantic, although I like a variety of flowers from time to time. Last time he got my brother flowers for graduation and the sunflowers were really nice, compliments from my momma.

Dangerous? Better be careful!

Ever so studious me. Always working on physics--my entire summer right there.

It was around 10 pm--the night was still young and we didn't know what to do. I texted my friend and found out she was in LA for the night so we decided to hit her up and venture into SGV to get our boba fix. We're too young to sleep at 10 on a Friday night, LOL

I rarely ever get Half & Half so I always get excited when I do! I think we both got the same drink: Ice milk with strawberry, pudding and honey boba. Life was good. :)

Summer Lovin'

Another late night post, this time running on caffeine from my Milk Tea with caramel, honey boba and egg pudding from Half&Half courtesy of my baby boo. He's the best :)

I've been packing all week, getting everything ready for my move into my apartment. It's been quite nerve-wracking--one day not having utilities set up, to buying the couch, and saying good bye to the folks back home. A couple days ago I was a mess, trying to get my life back together (major PMS problems right there) but today I am almost ready and extremely excited about moving! I'm finally getting my own place, technically. Makes me feel like a big girl now, paying bills, worrying about rent and all that jazz. Supes excited, though ^_^

So what else have I been up to in the past week? Just hanging out with some friends before my life got taken over by packing. Summer nights ♥

Boiling Crab with my lovely kangas, followed by some old fashion boba. We had a kick laughing at all the boba names, including "Awesome Threesome" and "Sunburnt White Boy."

Saw the Dark Knight Rises finally with my baby boo! Apparently, this was his third time watching it, LOL. Nolan does an amazing job ending the Batman trilogy. Very clever

OC fair date with my future apartment mates. I'm thrilled to be living with them next year; they are all a fun and exciting bunch. Extremely patient with me, very kind and smart. We all have pretty much similar interests, heights (LOL) and personalities. 

My caffeine is starting to wear off, I'm calling it a night. Good night world, until next post!

Can we get away? Far away.

Sometimes I wish I can get away. Just to escape this place I call home for a day, a week, a year and then come home to a newly refurbish place, with cool leather couches, a polished hardwood floor, a room of my own, painted in something other than boring white. Come home to spacious rooms, newly painted, bathrooms, clean and shiny, grass, crisp and green.

This summer, more than ever, I feel ashamed of my house. Living in the dorms where everything is new and clean and in my grasp, to visiting my friends' houses where the rooms are newly remodeled and decorated. Then coming home to my mom constantly complaining how shitty our place looks, how my dad lacks motivation and imagination to reorganize everything, how she doesn't have time to rearrange the stack of old shit buried in the corner to how rusty our fences are, how we don't see all the cracks in the wall as she does. In fact, we do. Or at least I do. But I feel powerless to change anything. If I could, I would sort through everything and throw away all the unnecessary junk accumulating over the past 20 years of my life. Maybe if I could, I'd paint over the walls to some hip color. Or clean the rooms, weed the gardens... I can't because I feel that this is YOUR place and I don't know where any shit is. You store away things in your own secret corner and if I ask you, it's always such a hassle.

Maybe that's the reason why I always feel so powerless when I'm at home. I mean, it's nice to have a place to stay and parents to provide for you, but I'm a growing young woman. My mature mind is processing and pretty soon I think I need my own space to decorate. Every night I come home crawling back into my little hole in the ground, waiting for the next day to come. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my house but I always feel like there's something more to it that could be done. But what could I do--a poor college student whose going to be in serious debt by the time she finishes her undergrad. What can I possibly do knowing fully well that I'm going to be in deeper debt by the time I finish pharmacy school. What is there to do? I want so much more than I can afford: a new point and shoot, a fancy wristwatch, shoes... simple things by society's standards. Money to occasionally eat out and enjoy life with friends, to buy beautiful clothes to stay in style, to shower my family with gifts, I'm living on a day to day basis. Currently not working, but once I start working in August, once school starts, I have rent to pay, bills, tuition, books to worry about... demands way  too high to meet my meek wages.

I wish there was a way to make decent money at such a young age. Something to help my parents to compensate for my daily demands. Something to give me hope that one day my loans will be paid off. Something to reassure me that my future is reachable, that my Pharm D. is worth it. That the 200K debt I'll be in, will be paid off within a year or two. That when I start my own family, I can afford a house, a car and everything else without having to struggle over how my kids will live through the next day. Don't we all wish the same thing? Isn't it all part of the American Dream? Struggle now so hopefully the younger generations don't have to struggle? Everyone's thinking of it, I'm not the first to feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I'm digging deeper into this hole; hopefully one day, I can crawl out and bury it with my success.

Keep calm, it's almost summer

So soon, so close. Only one final left standing in my way. Approximately 18 more hours until the breezy days and clear skies and warm beaches are mine. Everyone around me is done and moving out of the dorms. Everyone outside is all happy and chirpy, relaxed, dressed in khaki shorts and summer dresses. Everyone is pushing those moving carts because they are moving out, going back to home, wherever that might be. Everyone around me are happy, but I too shall soon join them. Second year, you've been good to me, but this summer, Summer 2012, will do me right. I can already taste it on my lips.

I am going to start studying for my last final. I took a five hour break earlier, cleaning my desk and drawers, packing stuff into boxes. Scrapbooking for my beloved Diane and Billy, but that shall be TBC. There are still a lot more I want to do, especially for the graduating seniors, but I don't have time right now. Soon, soon. :)