Stronger than yesterday

I declare this rock bottom. No longer will I mope around waiting for your attention. No longer will I constantly check facebook and tumblr for your whereabouts. No longer will I stalk other people's twitters just to see them reply to you. No more. I am no determined to live my own life. I will not look at your stuff for that will only bring back memories. I will not wonder what went wrong, who's fault it was, whether you still care. No more. No more sad tweets over twitter how I can't go on, or how my heart hurts. I will not deny anything. YES, I am hurting, YES I am constantly thinking about you, but NO LONGER WILL IT DICTATE MY LIFE. I am done with moping. Before I start the constant battle of going over what happen, I will agree, the feelings were MUTUAL. Meaning both parties had been thinking about the same thing. Which means, NO MORE REGRETS. Yes, I understand that I am sad, but I MUST ACCEPT THE CHANGE. I will rise from the ashes, doing things I love, talking to people I enjoy, and surrounding myself with things that MAKE ME HAPPY. Because you like me happy, my friends and family like me happy, and I want myself to be happy. So I gotta be happy and smile. :)

Honestly, I think this extreme case of mood swings has to do with my period. I am a day late and still waiting...so I've been extremely cranky, moody, sleepy, bitchy, and craving sweets like no other. But I shall manage. The show must go on. I know you have your own life to run, and I have mine. The more I think about us and what could have beens, the more clingy and upset I get. So the quickest step to being friends is to ACCEPT and MOVE ON. It's time I get myself together. Starting right now----