Pet Peeve?

So...it's been one week since my birthday. And I don't mean to be self-centered or spoiled or anything, but where's my birthday present?! :( 

That is all I shall post. I started typing a bunch of other things, but I decided to delete it.

Wahhhh, I hope you're not neglecting me.

Now how about that Michael Kors, ehh? :)

Being a girlfriend

Being a girlfriend is not just about being beautiful and attractive for your guy. It's not just about letting him chase you, letting him do sweet things every time you're mad at him and not just receiving flowers and gifts during your anniversaries. It's not about doing those girly things just to get his attention and not just about feeling mighty every time he did everything you want. It's also being an emotional partner wherein you support him in every opportunity that he takes, you appreciate everything that he does for you and you thank him for doing it, you remind him on the things he must do and what he must not. Just because you know that you can always keep him on his feet doesn't mean you can manipulate him. You understand him not just as a partner but as a individual too. You help him in every way showing him, that in a relationship, there's no "I" or "you", there's only "we" and "us". You know also that a man has their ego, and even when it becomes a little irritating sometimes, you still understand that it's a part of his nature. A girlfriend is just not a term, it also has responsibilities that every girl must know. You're a friend, a sister, a second mom, a teacher and a best friend.

I'm sorry I haven't been at my best for you lately. I've been accustomed all my life to getting exactly what I wanted that sometimes I forget you are human too. That you have your own goals, plans, worries, ideas... I know I don't say this often enough that I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that, I didn't think it through. I know you have to deal with all of my bullshit too. I know you get tired of it, I get tired of myself sometimes. But I can't help picking out your every fault. I try not to, but it seems I tend to do that with everyone. Some days it'll be good and then other days, I like to hurt. I'm sorry dear. It'll get better, I hope so. We can get through this together.

I'll never chase away the rain

I fucked up, didn't I? Can I take back all those texts, all the words, feelings and thoughts that went on earlier today? I seriously feel like shit. At first, I was the one pissed because you weren't responding, and then you got even more upset. And even now, you're still upset, and I'm not quite sorry. My roommate once told me, "Are you guys okay? I feel so bad, you guys always seem to be fighting. Why can't you just be happy? Why can't you just appreciate each other" and I said I didn't know. I think I am extremely hard to please. I try to hold back some of my words and thoughts but sometimes they get the best of me. And sometimes, they get the best of you. And then it gets messy. And then I think you deserve way better than me. Why do we go through this endless cycle. My thoughts are all jumbled up right now. I'm sure they can make you feel better. Better than me, i'm the one who always has to kill your buzz. Why? Why do I bring you down, why can't I be happy when you're happy. Why can't I be appreciative of what I have instead of constantly pushing you away. I think it's my human nature to push everyone who's good to me away simply because I want to hurt them. I don't know why. I want to stop, but it always comes up. Maybe it's not meant to be. I want to be in the happy relationship but quite frankly, I don't know if i'm happy right now. I don't know if i'll ever make you happy.

20 years young

It's almost here!!! The day I've been waiting for ALL MY LIFE. No, not really, LOL. I feel so bad for my friends, I've been talking nonstop about my 21st since foreverrrrrrr. So much for being humble. One more day until I can be legal!! :) but then again, one more day until my midterms ._. and then two more days until my harder midterm. Poop. I can't believe this entire month flew by so fast. Where has all the time gone? In the meanwhile, here's what I've been up to lately :)

I knew this day would come, I knew it all along. Why did it come so fast :')

 Guess who got a new phone?! And not just any phone, a smart iPhone! What a beauty. She's in a HK case, straight from the factory. I bought it off my cousin's friend for $350. Used, unlocked, but in pretty decent condition :) Life has gotten so much...smarter.

Belated Valentine's date with my boo

Simple and small dinner with my baby. He took me to Napa Valley Grill (4 stars on yelp!) and we tried chopped kale salad, scallops and some kind of beef. Super delicious, service was uh-mazing. And we unintentionally matched too. Happy third valentine's day baby. You didn't need to ask, but you were the perfect valentine's date a girl could ever ask for.

We dance for life.

My roommates and I participated in Dance marathon!!!!! And dressed to all 9 themes, hehe. We are such fashionistas ;) hehe, well they are! 26 hours of non-stop dancing, moving, and standing on our feeeeeet. We danced for 26 hours, we slept for 26 hours, we ate for 26 hours and we stayed up doing homework for the next 26 hours (this only applied to me, sadly) Wonderful experience. If I had to do it all over again, it's only with these girrrrrls

Time to head back to studying! I had a different topic in mind for blogging but I got off on a tangent. See you in the next post!

Be my Valentine

I've always been a fan of Valentine's day except my V-day is usually mediocre, nothing fancy. I remember back in highschool it was a day where girls get to show off their flowers or cupcakes or candy grams from a special boy. I was one of them x] LOL but ever since college, my valentine's day were always alright. it's funny because I have been in a relationship since college started, yet the past couple of valentine's day were never quite special. I remember my first valentine with my boyfriend: we celebrated by having a cute quiet romantic weekend and then we got in a huge fight. I think it might have been our first fight/disagreement ever that I didn't even know whether or  not we would conquer through or wither away. Well, two years later, her e we are, still together, stronger than ever. Last year's Valentine, I was determine to not make a repeat of our first year. I made sure not to get upset or let anything get to me. My boyfriend was super sweet. He drove the 50 some odd miles between us to deliver me a single rose the night before with a note saying, "I want you to carry this with you everywhere you go tomorrow. When you get sad or lonely, just look at the rose and imagine I'm right there." Awwww :') that was probably the most cheesiest thing he's never said to me, LOL. But I bought it. I carried it around campus, to work, to dinner. It was like my shield against  all the evils to ruin v-day. Again, nothing fancy. No romantic candlelit dinners filled with rose petals and shit (although every girl still dreams of this) This year, we're not doing anything special. He has class and internship and I have work and school, and plans during the weekend. Just a ordinary day, I suppose.

The COMPLETE UCLA College Experience

Hi, I'm Denise and I'm a third year.  There are a lot of things that I've experience during my three years here at UCLA that I would consider life-changing and there are a lot of things I am determine to try before graduating next year.

College is an amazing time to get outside of your comfort zone and try out new experiences. You are at the prime of your youth, so why not make the most of it and enjoy your time at one of the most beautiful campuses in the world? Here, I have compiled a list of 10 things you should definitely check out during the four years that you are here. :)

1. Unicamp: Become a camp counselor to underprivileged kids for a week! Build future leaders from the get-go and inspire the children to become the best they can be.  I honestly cannot describe all the feels I get from doing Unicamp--it was probably one of my most life changing experiences to see how I can impact a young boy/girl's perspective on life and to show them their opportunities are endless.  Although it did take a lot of time and commitment, it was definitely worth every second of it in the end :)
2. Dance Marathon: Take a stand against AIDS and dance for 26 hours straight.  It's about time we find the cure and eradicate this disease off the face of earth.
3. UCLA vs. USC: basketball game, football game, anything!! Whether you tailgate, or camp out for tickets, seeing the LA-SC rivalry at its finest is something you do not want to miss.
4. Ice blocking at Jans Steps: Is it illegal? Who knows. Is it dangerous? Probably. But it sure is a lot of fun. Grab a group of friends and a big block of ice and sled down the grassy hill by Jans Steps. It is exciting, thrilling and electrifying.
5. Dinner for 12 Strangers: A fancy dinner with 12 people you've never met. Alumni, undergraduate, and graduate from all walks of life sharing one meal together. Talk about diversity! Make sure you sign up right when the email comes out. Don't hesitate. I was hesitant my first two years here and wasn't able to secure a spot, but I am going this year for the first time.
6. Tunneling: This is definitely not allowed, but if you are bored at midnight and feeling adventurous and risk-taking, grab a flashlight and explore the underground pathways of UCLA.
7. Perform in a culture night: So many culture nights. Oh, but the thrill of performing on stage for 500+ people!
8. Undie run: Must I explain? It happens at the end of every finals on a Wednesday. So if your finals are already done, get undressed and join in on this exciting adventure. ;)
9. Explore the roof of ALL of the buildings: MS, Boelter, Broad, Royce (I've only been on top of MS and Boelter)
10. Study abroad: why not. You only live once, so might as well explore the world. If you are a south campus major, there is a physics program in England that you should look into (advice I wish someone told me when I was a first year) All you gotta do is plan ahead and apply immediately once the program opens up.

Do good, feel good

Yesterday, despite the lack of exciting events, I had a surprisingly good time. Woke up early and got some good two/three hours of studying done. Prepared a delicious VEGETARIAN meal. Went to a service event with Circle K (literally, my second service event this entire school year) where we cook a scrumptious meal for Turning point (transitional housing for homeless people) It makes me miss doing service, serving the older community. After that, we hit up dorm dinner (service with uclacki=free meal afterwards) and ate for hours, laughing at Connie's and Jeremy's horrible jokes about dead babies and dirty pick up lines. Although I didn't get much studying the rest of the night, I got several donations from people for Dance marathon ^_^ that were totally unexpected and it ultimately made my night. I ended the night online shopping for an MK watch that I will soon add to my collection as a birthday gift. Life is good. :)